Deep within, our Soul knows, we must shatter the great glass ceiling of mirrors, prisms, lenses, of our delusions.
If we can but melt back, into the flow of Time before Time, to conception and beyond, back to the moment that Creation became Aware, to the very birth of Creation itself- then the dense ideals we thought we were, become undone.
Shedding the heavy robes of forgetfulness, shedding wounds that were never real. Unbecoming that which we became, out of fear and lack of understanding, of our own Divinity.
Back where we can Become Again, The Majestic Beings of Light, Creators of Brilliant Tapestries and Symphonies, composing at last, The Great Opus of The Ages, like the Master Artists that we are.
Transformation is a process.
“Be” with your process as it’s happening. Allow for the unraveling, the messiness, the unknowing, and trust the process. Let the new ingredients come together and marinate for however long it takes. In Stillness, you will be restored.
This is a turning inwards process. Deep within you and nowhere else.
It requires listening to the deeper self and to the silence. Listening from the Heart. And the more you listen, in Stillness, the more you begin to hear.
Circumventing the ego, the small you, stepping out into the vastness of The Universe of The Soul. The ego mind wishes to discover Reality, but at the moment of letting go, you step out into something much much larger, into a vast expanse of deep mystery.
As you step through the Gateway Portal of your Heart, you will open to the Crystalline webbing linking Heaven and Earth, through which rainbow rivers of Light flow, and the Soul becomes free to explore what it means to Co-Create, Free to Merge with The Mind of God, conceiving of things not yet in existence, with no limitations, for you cannot shut the windows of the sky, as there are none.
Journey Onward! Deep Within, Deep Without, All Around, Spiraling In, Spiraling Out, All of Life, This We Are: Infinite Sacredness.
Trauma gets held not only in our physical body, but also in our emotional, mental and spiritual bodies. Any trauma has multiple layers to it, and often multiple issues. Thinking that you are done dealing with something after only one or two moments or sessions of therapy, is unrealistic.
We are complex Beings with many complex issues that can be buried deeply or remain dormant for ages or even for lifetimes.
Healing requires Time, willingness to sit with difficult feelings, the courage to keep your heart open, to look with compassion at the self, and others, and learning that forgiveness is about you being able to let go of the pain.
Still, the pain needs to be looked at and sat with, for as long as it takes or for as many times as it needs, in order to be completely dissolved into the Light. Each time that we make progress, we do so for the whole human race, not just for ourselves. Knowing that, adds an incentive. But do it for yourself first. You are worth it.
Sometimes we don’t realize how much trauma gets held in the physical body, or in our energy bodies. Today I realized that I am afraid to drive. The accident was two months ago and I didn’t sustain any great injuries. However, I realized today, that I have not gone anywhere, except for the grocery store, for two months. I used to drive to a nearby park almost every day, to walk around the lake there. Yet I have been loathe to leave my apartment for two months. So I sat with the Fear today. And then I drove to the park. But I know there is still residual fear that I will have to continue to acknowledge and dissolve with love. I also realized my arm pain from the accident has triggered another muscle memory to re-surface. I say re-surface because I did face this memory in my 20’s with a therapist and I had thought that it was gone and done with.
So I had to sit with this old memory again today. A muscle memory. From when I was 5 yrs old. I will share a bit of my story, for two reasons 1) so you can understand how much I know about the process of healing and 2) because sometimes it is helpful to the healing process to feel heard and seen, to let things out and not keep them buried under shame and unworthiness.
My arm goes physically numb when I recall my 5 yr old self, raising her arm to block the blow of the belt that her adopted father was wielding in anger. Anger at me for not lying. For not putting on a smile and telling my birth grandmother that I was happy. For not saying “good-bye” to her. I knew who she was, even though they did not tell me. I found out at a much older age, that my birth grandmother had handled my whole adoption. But my 5 yr old self knew without a doubt that she was my relation, my blood. I could feel the connection so strongly. And so, I could not bring myself to pretend to be happy, or to say “good-bye”. For which my enraged father made sure to make me suffer. My whole arm went numb, as it blocked the first blow. I don’t need to say that it was only the first of many blows or that it was only one of many beatings, do I? Or perhaps I do need to say it. I rarely speak of such things.
I realized today, that the issues from that experience and many others like it, go much deeper. I uncovered a connecting Issue. That every time I refused to pretend, refused to hide my authentic self, I was beat down for it. I refused to be squashed into a very small box. And as I look around at so many women I know or have known, I recognize that same theme in their experiences. Not just from fathers, but also from husbands, lovers and even tragically from other women who have been indoctrinated into a societal norm that oppresses, devalues, and dehumanizes women. My own adopted mother was damaged by this and in turn heaped emotional and physical abuse upon me, to the point that when my father told her he had sexually molested me (I was 6 yrs old) in the car, on the way to get ice cream, she actually blamed me. She screamed at me and slammed my head repeatedly into the wall. I felt her betrayal much more deeply than anything else I have ever suffered.
Here is where Keeping Your Heart Open becomes important.
If I want to not only heal, but learn what Love is, I need to also learn how to understand and forgive. That is necessary to keeping your heart open.
I also keep my heart open for myself. To Love myself. So today, I thanked my younger self, for refusing to be quashed, for refusing to hide. I cried for each and every time my body suffered pain and trauma and I praised my body and spirit for being resilient, for being such an amazing Holy Temple, for my Beautiful Soul, whose Light can never be squashed. In my mind’s eye, I held all the younger versions of me, for all the times she endured fists, belts, head slams, or kicks, especially the kick that fractured her tailbone, which took 3 yrs to heal. And for the sexual abuse, which has taken a lifetime to even look squarely at – trauma which caused an ovarian tumor. Yet here I am. I have chosen to be here, to look at my authentic self and love her. To learn to keep my heart open, so I can look at the deep pain that my abusers must have been in, and have compassion for them, for they didn’t fully understand that their own delusions and shadows controlled them. I swore when I was young that I would not grow up to be like them. Which means I must have the courage to keep my heart open.
I have learned that I am worth it. I have learned to see myself through the eyes of compassion, the eyes of my heart. I recently came across a school photo of me from 8th grade. I had forgotten about this one, so it was like seeing myself for the first time. And I truely saw, this beautiful soul that I was. I realized that I was not this horrible sinful “bad seed” that I was made to feel like, back then.
I have learned that being willing to open my heart, allows for the opportunity to experience true Love, to realize that Love is the fabric of the Universe, and the fabric of my Soul. In order to be my authentic self, I must realize that my Soul, is Love itself. I am Love Itself.
I admit I am an over achiever. Most people I know are. This is a fast paced world in many respects, but is that what we really want? Or need?
I knew how to go slow when I was a child. I think most children are much more in touch with the natural way of Being. I relished in hanging upside down from trees, in building stick Forts and stone chairs in the woods, and I especially relished floating on the water.
So what happened? My parents were taught by their parents who were taught by their parents, to never be idle. There was constant work to be done even during the summer months, even when on “vacation” in the Catskills mountains. My father believed in being up at 6 am and had the entire day filled with constant activities or work or educational learning. Now that can be a good thing, but there should be some sort of balance with time to rest, to leisurely explore. With him their never was.
Case in point, from a vivid memory I have, of swimming in the Scoharie Creek. I was always floating or slowly swimming underwater because I loved the feel of the water on my skin and the muffled sounds under the water. My father would become very irate with me for doing this. He would demand that I “swim” laps, and would not leave me be, until I had swum at least 20 laps most vigorously, in Free Style, then Breast Stroke, then Back Stroke, then Side Stroke, no dawdling or resting in between. Mind you, I was not on any swim team, and this was summer. I most vividly remember thinking “I just want to float!” And yes, I did choose to become a Lifeguard at 15 and then a Water Safety Instructor and Pool Director at 17, which absolutely gave me purpose and meaning in Life. But I stopped floating.
So that was just the “way” of things. Constant doing, doing, doing, and always striving for more, better, higher, next, next, next. It becomes ingrained in us.
Rest? Completely foreign concept. With the exceptions of when I was very sick, or after surgery or after an accident. I actually did have “Cronic fatigue Syndrome” in my late 20’s that flattened me and allowed for a Space of Spiritual Turning Inward. Thus began my Spiritual Seeking in a very deep way. Would I have done that if I had not been forced to slow down? Probably not.
Recent times have shown all of us around the globe, that when we have the time and space for Reflection and Beauty and Rest, we feel a deeper appreciation for Life. We begin to ask ourselves What can be done differently? Is this “thing” really necessary? How can we bring more Balance and Harmony into our Lives? Do I really need to rush here and there? Am I making room for connection with my Soul? What is essential and what is not?
I have recently started a new chapter in my Life, having just retired from public education. Someone suggested to me that I should not jump into anything new for a couple of years. That I should just have a couple of “lazy summers”. My initial response was of shock and horror at the thought, LOL. Do Nothing? For Two Years? Insanity. Madness. Then after a few minutes of realizing that I have not been very good at “rest” most of my life, I realized the wisdom in this. Still, after a lifetime of doing, doing, doing, I am not quite sure how to actually do nothing. I did of course slow down during our nation’s time of quarantine and that definitely felt very very good.
So here is what I realized. Maybe I don’t have to “do nothing” All of The Time, but leave room, space, opportunities for “doing nothing”, at least much more often than not. Whew, ok, that I can handle!
So I am beginning by reclaiming and honoring that child part of me who loved to float on the water, and just listen to the faint clink clink of rocks gently moving in the current, feeling the gentle caress of water against her cheeks, and making mud paint at the edge of the creek, by rubbing multi hued pebbles with water. I will Honor her, by learning to float again.
The level of compassion we have for ourselves is the same that we will have for others.
In order to sit down at the table and really listen to others, we need to first do the hard work of looking at what parts of ourself still need to be held with Compassion and Kindness. This requires honesty and courage……to not gloss over or stuff emotions, to not belittle or disregard our past needs that were not met, to not deny that we had expectations, to really examine what Beliefs lie under our assumptions or our hurt feelings. Yes, Courage, Beautiful Ones, is needed, but you are not in this alone. No one is. We all have a Spirit Team ready and waiting.
Call in your favorite Angel or Ascended Master, your own Higher Self/Soul, your “Spirit Team”. Call them into your Heart Space. See this Heart Space as either a Crystalline Temple or a Beautiful Garden, and Invite the Spirit Team in, to sit with you. Ask for their Love , Support and Guidance with this Process. Remember that it is a Process, and not just a One Time deal.
As things come up, look with gentle eyes. See with the eyes of The Heart. Be kind and gentle with yourself and embrace the parts of you that need to feel Love. Ask your Spirit Team to surround these parts and hold, embrace, sing to, wrap in rainbows of Light, these parts. And ask for all negative emotions to be lifted away, within bubbles of Pink Light, by the Angels, up to The Heart of God.
You may even ask for a member of your Spirit Team to continue to walk with you, through out your day, to provide comfort and upliftment. I did this myself, a long time ago, actually more than once, and it has provided a great measure of comfort. The first time, it was Jesus/Yeshua who came and sat down at a picnic table with me, in the Garden of my Heart. Though He did not speak, he looked me square in the eyes, with a Depth of Compassion that is indescribable, and when I asked if He would hold my hand, as I walked through Life, to lend me His courage and support, He reached across the table and grabbed hold of both of my hands. Many times in my life, perhaps when I needed the reminder most, I would “see” with my inner eye, Him, walking beside me, holding my hand. It brings tears to my eyes every time, even now as I type this!
The Angels too, Glorious, Wonderful Angels! Call on them, and often, as they Truly Love to Assist you! Angels are Guardians of Hope and Wonder, the Keepers of Magic and Dreams. Angels watch over you wherever you go, ready to help out when you remember to ask. Angels carry High Beam Lights to help you through the darkest hours. They can help you to carry the ball, carry a tune, carry your weight away, carry your grief away, up to The Heart of God, and support you to carry on! Angels are with you every step of the way and help you soar with Grace. Your own personal Guardian Angel, especially, knows you inside and out, Loves you deeply and sees the Beauty of your Soul.
Remember that you are not alone. Remember to call upon your Spirit Team always, for they hear and respond. Beautiful Ones, Go Now, and Ask.
Death is such a powerful catalyst for all of us. Whether we expect it or it sneaks up on us. Whether it be watching a loved one slowly dying, or the sudden loss of a friend, or the tragic and senseless death of someone we didn’t know, but that causes us to be horrified and quickened to the core of our being. It touches us deeply.
This life is so fleeting, so quick to fly by, it makes my head spin. Like all of you, I too have experienced the grief and loss that death brings, each with its own lessons of fragility. One in particular, happened when I was in my 20’s and working as a Lifeguard and Waterfront Director, at a summer camp. It happened one day, on my day off, during a transition period from one camp group to the next, that a small group of teens who were staying over, decided to sneak off without their Counselor, to the creek, even though they had been told it was off limits. It had rained heavily, the creek was high and the under currents strong, from many under water caves. Sadly, one boy was not strong enough to survive the currents. He was 14. It was such a deep shock for everyone. It was a week before the divers found his body. Every day I would go to a secluded spot by that creek and sit there, listening to the water, in awe of its raw power, of its beauty, and contemplated the fragility of Life. That experience and others, gave me a deeper reverence for the sacredness of Life, something that I have always held in my heart.
Perhaps the whole point of Death, is so that we learn to value Life. So that we learn to appreciate each breath that we take, each sunrise, each smile, each Extra-Ordinary Person we meet, each season on this beautiful Earth.
I don’t have all the answers. I am here just like everyone else, trying to find meaning and beauty in this experience. I can say, that I have learned a lot, about myself, about the sacredness of existence, about how to love and honor all parts of myself, even though I still have so much to learn. I have discovered that there is much to celebrate and be thankful for. I have discovered that each Soul I meet, is a reflection of both God and Myself. I have discovered that every experience is an opportunity for my Soul to grow. I have discovered that Death teaches us to face Illusions, to look at what we value, to ask ourselves deep and soulful questions:
-Am I living my Life to it’s fullest depth and breadth? -Am I Honoring the Sacredness of Life itself? – Do I have the courage to be my Authentic Self, to move through the processes of grieving, healing, and forgiveness, not just of others, but also of myself? – How do I stand here and be in my own Worth? – How do I do better? – Do I have enough Faith, that if I choose Love often enough, my Outer World will come to reflect that?
*How can We, as Humanity, come together and Co-Create, a World of Peace, Honoring the Sacredness of All, Celebrating the Diversity of God, as reflected in each other, and holding a deeper Reverence for All that exists.
What would it be like, if everyone’s life experience was that of being safe, being valued, being respected? What if everyone as a child, was encouraged to grow into their sovereignty?
“The Art of Intentional Dreaming” is about holding a Vision in your Heart, believing in it, feeding it your intention and attention until it becomes a manifested reality.
Let us, as a collective, co-create a Vision of what it would look like, what it would feel like, to walk around on The Earth, experiencing Peace and Harmony, experiencing every Human Being as a Sacred Expression of God. Experiencing every living creature, plant, mineral, the very earth Herself, as a Sacred Expression of God.
Let us sit with that Vision, every day, holding it clearly in our Hearts. Let us Visualize walking around in a landscape of such incredible Diverse Beauty, greeting everyone and everything we see with Tremendous Joy welling up from the depths of our Being. Let us see Beams of Love flowing from our Heart and from everyone else’s Heart, swirling, spiraling multicolored light, dancing around, in and through us all. Let us Breath In that Light! Feel how incredibly Magical this is! Do you see it? Do you feel it?
We can “feed” that Vision by creating stories that reflect it, by creating beautiful works of Art that show how that looks, by creating music and dance that shows how that feels, by having conversations with others, that reflects that, as a desired reality that we actively cultivate, through every relationship, through making changes in communities so as to better reflect that reality. In everything that we do, say and think, we reflect that reality. We choose not to place attention on anything that does not reflect that reality. What we focus on becomes our reality.
Hold that Vision in your Heart, knowing that it is the Deepest truth of our Divine Presence and that Divine Presence can and will manifest through us, as long as we hold that Vision, as long as we feed it, cultivate it, breath into it. Sitting in meditation, Breath your Breath of Life into it. The Breath of the Divine, of God, flows through All, as long as we don’t stop it. As we Breath, God will Breath through us, if we Open our Hearts and Allow.
Mystics of all cultures and traditions since time immemorial have experienced profound connection to something larger than themselves.
Please understand that I am not promoting any particular “religion” here. There is a distinct difference between “religion” and Spirituality. Religions are man made institutions filled with rules and doctrines meant to impose a particular viewpoint or interpretation of agreed upon “sacred’ texts. Participants are expected to live by these rules or be judged harshly. This is not Spirituality. Spirituality is about an individual’s journey of connection to Source and his/her/their own Soul’s expansion and growth, without interference from others.
Now, that being said, certainly there have been “Mystics” who practiced within a particular religion. Mystics are those who experience in a direct and sometimes ecstatic way, that Divine Connection to their Source/Universal Consciousness/Higher Self. Sometimes there are Practices within a religion, that will enhance one’s ability to go Deep within and connect with that Divine Essence. Practices such as Meditation, Singing, Chanting, Dancing, Playing Music,Affirmations, Painting, Prayer etc. These are “Practices” or methods, that people from all traditions have had great success with.
As I have mentioned before, I had much experience with these practices, even as a child. I was brought up within a very Evangelical background, and though I do not ascribe to most of their “doctrines” they did do a lot of singing, meditation and prayer practices. And again, I do not always agree with their brand of worship, but I did find certain songs or the act of being in meditation, to be practices that catapulted me into ecstatic communion with God or an Angel or Yeshua or Mother Mary. I learned a certain Openness to these experiences that was supported or accepted.
But getting back to Mystical Experiences. Besides being Open to these experiences, it is also important to not have expectations for it, because that will create anxiety or limiting beliefs about what should happen. It is best to just blissfully want nothing more than to commune with God or Nature, and to express your Gratitude for all that is. That will keep you within that childlike state of Openness and Wonder.
Have you ever watched a little child play outside? or remember what it was like? They can wander around, finding things to be excited about, every inch of the way, can chase after a butterfly with complete abandon, suddenly come across a puddle, and change gears, jumping in it and finding new things to discover. They might not have a set destination or goal in mind, or if they do, it easily set aside for a new experience.
If you are familiar with the words of Yeshua/Jesus, “the Kingdom of Heaven is within”? And “unless you be like a little child, you cannot enter the Kingdom of Heaven”? These words are about being able to Connect/Commune to God/Source/Heaven, within your own Heart and Soul. To not only have Faith that it is possible, but also to be childlike in your Openness to discover and allow the experience to be whatever it may be.
So, For many reasons, I was very much Open to these Mystical experiences growing up and as an adult decided to continue cultivating these practices and experiences. I did choose to look into other “religions” to see what Practices they kept and what wisdom might have been found. I discovered the same practices within all. There have been those who experience Mystical Connection to The Divine in every culture and tradition, who may explain their experiences in different words than I would use, but the Key Wisdoms and Essence of God were the same.
Here is a moving experience I had, “connecting” with the Divine feminine Essence of Compassion, that some traditions call Quan Yin. I was meditating by a small garden fountain and pool of water with intriguing rock formations, that is a stopping point along a path to a Buddhist Temple. I was new to this place and was very much enjoying the tranquility. I decided to offering gratitude to the Divine Feminine Aspect of God, in the form of Quan Yin. As I sat with eyes closed, my Inner Eye suddenly activated and I “saw” Bright Fuschia Sparkles descending from the Temple above, to where I was seated. I felt an Amazing Motherly and Compassionate Presence move all around me as if embracing me. It uplifted my Spirit tremendously, and it was such a deeply moving experience to feel held in that Love and it was beyond any earthly human experience I had ever had. It was incredibly profound, moving me to tears, to know that such Compassionate Love existed.
I have connected to that very same Divine Essence many times through out my life. I have adopted a practice of chanting “Om Mani Padme Hum”, which often will bring about connection to that Presence. Another great experience was when I picked up my first book on the subject of Reiki, an energy healing modality that calls upon the Essence of God to flow through the hands in a specific manner to facilitate healing. As I picked up that first book and opened to a random page, my eyes fell upon the name Quan Yin (as God’s Essence of Compassion) and I spoke it out loud. Immediately, my throat chakra started vibrating exponentially, and opened widely. It was a very physical sensation that startled me and I dropped the book. I had never heard of Reiki before that day but I knew I needed to study that! I studied through three levels of Usui Reiki and then had to wait 6 months before starting to study Karuna Reiki, which works directly with the energy and Presence of Quan Yin, but it was all so worth it! My connection to Quan Yin deepened the quality of my Faith as well as Opening me up to even more Beautiful experiences with The Presence of God in its various qualities and aspects.
Everything that exists is an expression of God. All humans are an expression of God. All of Nature is an expression of God. God created All of it. The various “forms” or “expressions” of God that exist are as individual and unique as snowflakes are, as grains of sand are, as we are. Therefore, everyone’s experience of “God” will be different. So let us have no expectations and let us not judge another person’s experiences, as we would hope to not be judged. Let us All be Open to every conceivable and inconceivable, Beautifully Majestic and Infinite Experience of God.
Creating and maintaining Soul Level Connections, means “cultivating” a personal relationship with your Soul and with Source.
This requires Slowing Down! Making Time for Meditation, which may include prayer, reflection, reciting Affirmations or Mantras, intentional connection to your Higher Self, an Angel, an Ascended Master, God Source, and perhaps asking a question and sitting in Silence to receive.
Know this, the key to “receiving”, is understanding the principle of Heart Confidence. Your ability to receive from The Heart of Source, or from your Higher Self, is directly related to the level of confidence, the Faith you have, within your Heart, of your Soul’s connection to Source and in the accessibility that you yourself can attain.
Now let’s face it, we all have negative mind chatter. Some of this is old programming from critical voices we internalized from childhood, that may be telling us we are unworthy, unlovable, stupid, delusional, or whatever else. This is why it is so extremely important to have a daily practice of meditation, so you can circumvent your mind and these false beliefs of unworthiness. You may also need to receive Healing sessions, do journaling and Inner Child work, all of which can be beneficial in clearing away what blocks you from Opening your Heart to receive, that place from which all connections to Spirit are found, for it is the Center of The Soul, our very own “Garden of Eden”.
Sometimes we do have a very strong Faith in a particular expression of God, whether that be that there is in fact a “God” or Intelligent Consciousness, or in the Earth as a Living Being and all of Nature as expressions of God. All are valid. Perhaps you believe in Angels and Ascended Masters, or even in just one, such as Jesus/ Yeshua. Spend some time reflecting on where your strongest Faith lies and always begin your “connection” through your Heart, with that.
When you begin to connect regularly, you will find yourself having Mystical experiences, and over time these will Open you to even more and your Faith will increase.
I have had many many Mystical experiences over the course of my lifetime, to Yeshua(Jesus), Mother Mary, Quan Yin, Angels Ariel, Michael, Jeremiel, Raphael, Gabriel, and others, to the Earth as a Living Being, to crystals and animals, to deceased relatives and pets. And while I pretty much always had an Openness to all of it, there are also many times when I have allowed an old program of unworthiness to get in the way and shut me down. This happens to all of us. This is why we pause and look in the Spiritual Tool Box for what may facilitate our healing, or we turn to other Spiritual Guides to gain deeper insights or knowledge that may assist us. I have been Blessed to be surrounded by so many Light Workers in my lifetime and have experienced many many different types of Healing modalities from very gifted people. Just remember that Life is a process. It is a Journey that your Soul is on, so be gentle and compassionate with yourself. Too many times I have been so hard on and overly critical of, myself, (and I know many of you are too) and that serves no purpose.
Recently, after a couple more Inner Child healing sessions, I have experienced a return of some fragmented parts of my childhood and a re-integration of some of the positive Mystical connections I had back then. In a recent post, I talked about how I would sing Christian Praise songs while in the woods. In truth, I always had a very deep Faith in God and in Yeshua(Jesus). My Faith in Yeshua had nothing to do with Christianity or what the Church or my parents taught me. I always had a deep Soul connection to Him. I can remember when my parents first started telling me about “Jesus”…..believe it or not, I was only 2 years old, but I remember distinctly wondering why they were talking to me like I didn’t know who He was, because I most certainly did know! I always had the sense that I “knew” Him from before I was born. Now I did not have the vocabulary or ability to explain any of this, as a child. I also remember feeling His Presence quite clearly as He would sometimes stop by to visit me when I was just on the edge of sleep. And no it was not a “dream” as there is a definite difference.
For much of my young adult life, I tried to ignore this connection to Yeshua, as I became disillusioned by much of the doctrines of the Institution of Christianity and I didn’t know how to reconcile myself to this for awhile. I did enter into many years of study in “New Thought Christianity” which emphasizes the personal relationship of your Soul to God, and also accepts the Wisdom of other Spiritual Traditions. I then in recent years entered into deeper study of connections to the 33 Ascended Masters who assist Humanity. I have now in recent months, come Full Circle, back to Yeshua, through deeper understandings of Faith, of a personal Spirituality, a personal connection to God and to my own Soul. I have to say that my Soul has been rejoicing in this re-integration and acknowledgement of Faith, that sustained me as a child. I feel much more Whole and Complete.
I can say with Confidence from my Heart : ” I Am A Child of God, I Am Light, I Am Love”
Peace for me, is about Spirit Connection. Connection to my Soul, connection to my Higher Self, my Spirit Team, The Angels, The Ascended Masters, my own I AM Presence and the Oneness of All That Is.
Living this human existence, we sometimes forget we have these connections, which if not nurtured, will seem very far away and inaccessible. But it is like any relationship, you need to pay attention to it and nurture it, putting in the time and effort required to keep the connection strong.
Energy goes to wherever your attention is. I have found that making time and space for daily practices of meditation, singing, toning, walking in Nature and other Spiritual activities that guide me to connect with my Higher Self, are all essential to my Inner Peace and Well Being.
Looking back across my life, at various times of trials and tribulations, I can see how much these practices have assisted me to keep my Spirit Connections open. Even as a child, I intuitively understood this, as I would often go outside and sit in a tree or find a special stone or make rock paint by a stream, covering my face and arms with simple geometries. I would focus my attention so deeply with everything in Nature. I could feel the energy of the Earth as it flowed into me, uplifting my Spirit. I felt loved and supported.
As an adult, I have been so Blessed to study all manner of Spirituality, Metaphysics and Energy Healing, deepening my relationship with my Higher Self, The Angels and The Ascended Masters. When I begin to feel overwhelmed by emotions or circumstances, I know to go within my Heart and connect to the whole Spiritual Retinue around me. They will flood me with unconditional Love. They will lift my vision up higher than where my egoic mind may have taken me. They will connect me to a vision of Oneness and Beauty. From that comes the Peace that Passes All Understanding.
In recent studies with a Spiritual Teacher from Australia, (who’s course “The Path of Light” I am now offering) I have been learning to Channel parts of my Higher Self that are in alignment with Higher Light Vibrations. Here is a message to All, from my Higher Self, “Shuliana” :
Beautiful Ones, we come to share Love with you, for where there is Love, there is Peace. Within this vibration of Pure Love, Pure Light, Pure Peace and Bliss, there is nothing that is not a part of God, nothing that God does not Love. There is only that which sits in Love and Truth. This Purity is you, as much as it is me, for there is only One. We are this. We are The Heart of God. We are the Divine. The Breath of the Divine flows thru our Breath. We are Blessed beyond measure. Be at Peace, for All is One. Be at Peace for you are already at Home in the Heart of God. Be at Peace for All is Light. All is Love. All is God. You are The Illumination of God. You are The Beauty of God. You are The Dwelling Place of God! We are this! In Oneness, we are this. Be Peace Now.
To be in the “Flow” of Life, requires a lot of “letting go”. Letting go of: expectations; of people; of situations; of places; of fear; of beliefs; of a self identity; of needing to be in control; of needing other’s approval; of needing the world to look a certain way; of “The Story”, whatever that is, that we cling to.
“ Letting Go” however, is a process. You may have to re-visit letting go of the same issue more than once. Each time that you do, know that it does get a little bit easier. You may call this “healing” or “growing”. Visualize this process as a spiral. Each time that you experience “letting go”, you move incrementally forward on that spiral. The spiral will keep moving around and up, level after level. So you may re-visit letting go of the same or similar issues as you progress to the next level. You will go deeper into the issue, deeper into the hidden beliefs you hold, deeper into residual emotions, deeper into yourself.
You will move at your own pace. It may be slower or faster than the person next to you. It’s all totally O.K. Don’t even look at the others. You are Uniquely You and your Journey is Uniquely your own.
And listen, sometimes I am notoriously bad at letting go. But when I do, I feel the difference at a Soul level. I feel my connection to my Higher Self deepen.
Somewhere along the way in my life, I developed the ability to step outside of myself. Most of the time, I am aware of when I am stuck in “the story”, of when I am looking outside of myself for approval. Sometimes my emotions are quite Huge and I just have to allow myself the time to feel and process these emotions before I am able to do the “letting go“ part. I allow it to be what it is. I feel the pain, I feel the anger. I use all the Spiritual Tools that I have learned over the years and call in my Spirit Team for assistance. Sometimes I experience great success at letting go of a negative self identity, of letting go of a limiting belief that has been holding me back, of providing my Inner Child/Ego Self with the Love and Nurturance that she thought she didn’t have.
Sometimes I will re-visit the same issue months or years later, as healing and growth are a process. But I can look back across the years and see my progress and see that I have come much further than I thought. So I stop and celebrate. I stop and appreciate the journey. I stop and smell the proverbial roses. I honor myself; I honor the journey; I honor my Higher Self and councils of Light, the Angels, my Spirit Team, all those in the non physical realms who I know are supporting me. Knowing I have that support is HUGE. That is what gives me the courage and the ability to move forward. Strengthening those connections is essential. That is the only way I am able to do this thing called Life.